for my girl

Rory Jean,

Very soon, your life will be changing.  Very soon, it will no longer be just you, mommy, and daddy.  Very soon, you will be a big sister; you will have a sibling for life.  We’ve spent months talking about what it will be like when Baby Brother is born.  How you’re going to hold him, and kiss him, and change his diaper all by yourself.  You have big plans of all the things you will do together, and I have no doubt that you are going to impress us with the big girl that you are.  At the same time, I wonder if you really know what is in store for you and our family.  Do you really know what it means to have a brother?  Do you understand that he will change all the routines that we have now, and he will grow to annoy you at times, but always love you no matter what?

I’m so excited to bring him into our world, but I have to admit that I’m also a little sad.  Just over three years ago, you came into our lives and you have taught me what it is like to love more than words can ever express.  You have made me realize how blessed my life is and that everything I have truly is a gift from God.  You have made me love your daddy more than I did the day I married him.  I’m sad because I have so many memories of you in these few short years, and knowing that it is time for your brother to arrive reminds me how every day of your life passes by me so quickly.  I have loved seeing you grow from that tiny infant into the caring and happy little girl you are today, and I cannot believe that it is only a matter of time before you are walking into kindergarten, going to college, getting married, having babies of your own.

In your three short years, you have grown into someone so wonderful, and adding big sister to your list is only going to make you even more special.  I will never forget all the time we have spent, just the three of us, and I am so glad that we are now going on as a family of four.  Tonight, as I write this through tears in my eyes, I look forward to seeing you with your little arms wrapped around your baby brother for the first time.  You always have, and always will, make me so proud to be your mother, and I love you…way, way more than you know.

God bless my bubby,

Mommy